Tired But Happy

What a weekend. It was a good one. I helped Jeremy and his mom move some of his stuff up to his house and then went to see the parentals last night. I had a good time this weekend, though, and I look forward to next.

I have been trying to find a good research topic, but I haven’t had much luck thus far. I hope to stumble onto something soon, though. I have a lot of work to do before Christmas break, but I know I’ll make it through. I am learning a lot about myself this semester–it’s been quite a humbling experience in many ways.

I love chemistry, but ochem is kicking my tail. I think it’s just a matter of not having the time I need for it. But maybe next semester will be better. I have taken on way too much lately and it leaves me feeling insanely frustrated and depressed.

I’ll get through it, though. Even if I go crazy in the process.

I need to go study.

Bird Girl of Alcatraz

I’m in a bad mood this morning and I’m trying to get out of this funk. I snapped at some classmates a moment ago and I think it’s just because I’ve felt so under the gun lately.

I’m tired of people just asking me only about classes and how I think I did on homework and how the test went and what I think I made on that project and if I’ve finished the next homework section and if I have time to help them with a problem and if I didn’t mind staying later to help them with whatever.

I feel like disappearing sometimes and not showing back up. I don’t like it when that’s all people ask me. What happened to how are you or did you have a good weekend or how is your family or what have you been up to lately….

I don’t have friends here–just responsibilities and acquaintances. And it makes me very, very irritable and frustrated. Sometimes I just feel like screaming “leave me alone!!!” to them. And I shouldn’t be like that. I don’t mind helping people, but it’s just disappointing when that’s the only thing they come to me about.

It’s frustrating having most of my friends graduate or live far away. I feel so very isolated here. I eat breakfast by myself everyday. I eat lunch by myself everyday. I walk to and from class by myself. I talk TO MYSELF. It’s definitely not healthy.

I feel insanely guilty and frustrated with myself because I have not had a chance to visit Heather. I really would like to, but I feel like I always have something to work on or I always need to be somewhere. I’ve always got something on my back and I really want to go visit her(and my grandmothers that live down in Loganville, too). I feel terrible about it and stressed all at the same time.

I miss having Heather, Alex, Jamie, and the others around with whom to talk. And I really miss having Katie for a roommate. We could talk about anything and it was always a good time.

This year has been too much like high school for my comfort. Maybe I should just resign myself to life being like high school. It’s not how nice you are to people or how hard you work. It’s still all about popularity and who has the prettiest hair/eyes/butt/car/whatever.

Still, I shouldn’t be snappy to people. I need to have more patience, I guess. Am I asking too much of them? I don’t know anymore.

This semester has really taken it out of me. Hopefully I’ll feel better after it is done with and I get a bit of a break.

In other news, I got to visit the parents last night. And the menagerie of creatures at the house, including the dogs, cat, and the bird I caught on the back porch. I let the bird go, though. I figured he preferred trees to rocking chairs.

I hope I get to see Jeremy tonight or tomorrow. We’re supposed to be moving him into his cabin at some point.

I’m off to Ochem and then to Calc. II. Then, hopefully to get some more work done. More later, compadres.

Politicians = Blech

Recently added to list of hated things: political commercials that center around bashing the opposing candidate, usually involving personal information that has been skewed against said opposing candidate, rather than addressing the real issues.

I like democracy and I like our government, but they’d both be better without this crap, amusing as it is to watch. Politicians make me ill.

I’ve got class in a minute and then tutoring and then another class, but after that I think I’m going to visit Mom and Dad this evening since I don’t get to see them much.

I get to help Jeremy move in this weekend! I’m so happy for him.

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I miss my dog.

31

So I survived last week–being sick, not being able to do much because of work, and constantly stressing. I made it through alright. I don’t know how I did on the test, but we’ll find out soon enough.

Yesterday went well. I went to visit my fam last night and got to watch CSI:Miami with the older old man. It was good to see them.

Today I am shuffling through my classes and then hopefully getting back to the room in time to catch up on some chores that I have been neglecting of late due to business. Jeremy may be coming over to see me.

I don’t think I’ll be dressing up this year for Halloween, though I do miss celebrating this holiday. I’ve been particularly nostalgic of late and I’m not quite sure why. Autumn. That’s what it is. I always get this way this time of year.

I enjoy school, but I am so ready for this semester to be done. I hate this constant feeling of rush and pressure and never getting time for myself(I look like hell lately). But I suppose that is life and I should just get used to it. At least I got my language credit worked out, so that I don’t have to take the Spanish night class in Athens next semester. That would have been terrible.

Jeremy’s cabin is almost complete and hopefully we’ll be moving his stuff this week or next. Excitement!

I’m off to Inorganic chem and then to Phil. and Meth. More later.

Ochem

I’ve been studying organic chemistry every night this week and since about seven this morning. I hope that my exam tomorrow will be better than the last. I am going to a study group at one and then tutoring at three. Then, I am escaping for a bit–going to visit Jeremy since I haven’t seen him all week. I’ll probably stop by the house to see Dad for a minute, too. I need to get off campus for a bit and clear my head. I have been sick and stressed all week about this test and I am giving myself a break. I’ll have some time tomorrow morning to look over everything before I go in for it, so I think I’ll be alright.

I am so looking forward to tomorrow evening–the hockey game with Jeremy. It will be such a relief to walk out of that room after handing Elrod my test. I just want to be done with it at this point.

Wish me luck. I’ll need it.

More later when I have the energy.

Sick and Tired

I am sick. My head feels as if it will explode at any moment. Hopefully, I will get better with a little rest. I am going to stay in this week as much as possible in an attempt to get well again. I still have quite a lot to do.

Tonight:
Organic problem sets(as much as I can get done)
Japanese work
SLEEEEEEP

Tomorrow:
Inorganic class
Calc. II study session
Philosophy/Methodology of Science class
Calc. II quiz

Wednesday:
Organic class
Inorganic lab
Humanities meeting
Japanese II class

Thursday:
Inorganic class
Organic study group

Friday:
Organic exam
Calc. II class

GG hockey game!!

Arrrggg. I’m so tired. But I gotta keep going.

Wish me luck.

Fall Break & Beyond

So I really should update more. I had a great Fall Break–I spent Saturday with the parental units up on Lake Seed and got to do some boating and camping. I got to see Jeremy all day Sunday and Monday evening. I enjoy hanging out with my fam and his. They’re all strange birds, but well-intentioned.

I had my Inorganic Chem. test yesterday and did very well on it(thank goodness). Now I just have to muck through my Organic test next Friday. I’m really nervous about it, but I’m going to start studying for it now so I will feel a little less overwhelmed when the time comes. I also need to talk with Elrod about my research proposals. It’s all getting so busy lately.

In other news, Jeremy’s cabin is coming right along. I know he’s thrilled about it. He’s gotten the tilework done, the appliances delivered, and the cabinets started. He hopes to be moving in by the end of next week, if all goes as planned. I’m excited for him. They’ve all worked so very hard on it and they’ll have something to be proud of when it is finished.

I am so happy to have him around. He’s my best friend, and I know I can count on him.

P.S. Next Friday is the first game of the Gwinnett Gladiators hockey season. Be there or be square.

Almost There

So, I have made it to this Wednesday afternoon. I have my Japanese 101 final in about two hours, so I have been studying up a storm. Hopefully it won’t be too bad–I’m brain dead by the evenings lately.

I had dinner with my parental units and Jeremy last night–he came over to visit me even though he didn’t have to. I also got to see my grandpa. I wish I had more time to see them.

Tomorrow I have classes and maybe a break afterwards. And then I can surely make it through Friday to my Fall Break. I can’t wait. Family time and Jeremy time.

I’m off to study.

Schools

So I’m still researching graduate programs. Here are some possibilities thus far:

Clemson University
Georgia Tech
Wake Forest University
University of Tennessee at Knoxville(?)
Emory University
UNC(?)

More later as I find out more…